feeling a little on the backburner. not much effort goes into it these days. i give it my all, but, what else is new. sometimes i’m very upset about it but other times i’m like, whatever i’m used to it. but i shouldn’t. cause i do know whats good for me. i want it to go back to normal. it’s so great. it’s fun. but lately, it’s absent and i’m sad. he’s busy and i understand. i respect it and admire it, even- he’s kicking ass at life. i don’t ask for much, though… just a hi, i’m thinking of you would suffice to know i’m in his mind. i shouldn’t write so freely. but this is for me, not for you. can’t take a drive & schmoke a pancake, thus this exists.
anyways, i’m shitting my pants about school left and right. i’m not even a full week in and i already want to give up. i was so happy to go back to keep busy & have things to do, hmm. i am going to work at the musical school again though, thank god!i need money. i need to get my tattoos out of my system, and then i’ll save my money.
i made a flickr… go look at it.
does anyone even read this thing? hmm…
there is a commet box if you want to say hi.
i’ll go first. HI.
i want to get an apartment to call my own and go to rutgers NOW. i want my own life, money, my boy & good friends. feels so far away. trappppppppped. but i know some day this week i’ll get a life high and talk about how awesome everything is. thats’ life though. =P
today my dads been singing “if you like it then you shoulda put a ring on itt, ooh ooh ohhh” and it’s hilarious. and then talking about how “eminem is gon’ bring it home, he’s gonna bring home some grits” i can’t translate this one, but he admits to liking eminem. then he asked me if dr. dre was still alive “because some of them get shottttttt and die of leadddddd poisoning.” if you know my dad, picture how he woudl say this and laugh. because i died.
i’m joining greenpeace this summer for a june-august job. washington d.c or san fransisco? i’ve been to both & love both. but i think san fran woudl be cool cause i can go away for a while. but i might get homesick. only time will tell where i’m at by june so i’ll play by ear. i hope they pick me, pick me!
over & out
im soo behind in LJ. but its nice to see you’re doing well these days.
(_tiferet LJ here btw, i just got new LJ username and was cleaning out my friends..)
I would definitely pick SF (I’m living in north Oakland now
). I know I sound biased but I’ve been to DC a lot and it’s nice but it’s not a place I would live in.
Either way, good luck w greenpeace!
DC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will TOTALLY visit if you do DC.